Tuesday, August 12, 2014

That's Great It Starts With An Earthquake

I was jolted awake by Michael Stipe serenading me with "It's The End Of The World As We Know It" and immediately remembered my sister telling me she had been listening to that song some 20+ years ago when our mom called to tell her I had been diagnosed with childhood bone cancer.

Really poor song choice for my alarm this morning, a day when I was waiting for scan results.

Two years ago today I had just returned from the AATE conference, where I had met all sorts of impressive folks, the leaders in the field of Theatre for Young Audiences, and had received an award as one of the up-and-comers.

And today I spent the day at the cancer center.

The results of my scans were mixed. The lungs look stable with a bit of shrinkage on the remaining spots (yay!) and the brain scan was clear (big yay!). The questionable area was my kidneys. There might be something suspicious on them, but they consulted with several radiologist and they couldn't agree if they were really seeing anything or not, so I am heading in for a PET scan next week to get a closer look.

They take away was don't panic yet. It might be nothing. I'll be busy celebrating my wonderful son turning 6 this weekend, so I will keep myself occupied with that. It was this same weekend last year that I was waiting for my first scan results after starting chemo, and I got pretty remarkable results on Jason's birthday (which is just 2 days after Zander's). I hope Jason gets another great birthday present this year. And maybe next year let's plan the scans on a different week.


This song has been going through my head, after the terrible news about Robin Williams. (He was my second choice for my Make a Wish when I was a kid, but Winona Ryder agreed - and we had a lovely day.) What a remarkable actor and comedian, and what a terrible loss to us all. My heart aches for his family and those close to him. I sure hope heaven is real, because he is someone I would really like to meet someday (but not for a long time).
The best of times is now.
As for tomorrow,
Well, who knows? Who knows? Who knows?
So hold this moment fast,
And live and love
As hard as you know how.
And make this moment last
Because the best of times is now.


Rachele Meredith said...

Ah yes, I still remember standing in the kitchen of my rental flat in 1990 with REM playing and dad telling me the news over the phone. Sudden and sad news about Robin Williams; I'm sitting here watching Dead Poets' Society in tribute. Glad your results were good again. Hopefully the kidney thing turns out to be nothing. Carpe diem!

Anonymous said...

Sorry you have mixed scan results--scan result days are so tough. Hope the kidney question is quickly resolved and you continue doing well!

Anonymous said...

Hi Tori, I do not know how to truly respond, only that I wish and pray for the very best for you and your family. I believe it is time that you got a clean break so that you can move on with your life and enjoy being a wife, mother and young woman eager to enjoy new and meaningful things. I believe that the best is still to come for you, stay strong.
Best wishes Sue

Anonymous said...

Enjoy your weekend! Praying that all will be fine with your PET scan.

Anonymous said...

Hi Tori
Much love and warm well wishes to you and your beautiful family.
Thank you for reminding me that the best of times is now.
So proud to be related to such an amazing, inspiring, caring human being.
Your cousin, Julia xoxo

Anonymous said...

Hope it's nothing major. Keeping my fingers crossed.