Showing posts with label community. Show all posts
Showing posts with label community. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 27, 2019

Dumbfounded

And humbled.
And stunned.
And grateful.
And relieved.

I spent a big chunk of February scrambling to find a way to fund the wonderfully intense clinical trial that I am so thankful to be in.

I have received some of the kindest rejections of my life, from organizations that truly want to help patients, but for various reasons were not able to help me. We were getting closer to March, and I hadn’t booked any of my March flights yet. I was starting to worry.

So when my dear friend Lily (the same one who gifted me the ruby slippers) brought up the idea of doing a gofundme, I initially balked. I was sure I could find a foundation to cover the expense. But the days marched on, and still nothing. Finally, I gave her my blessing to start it.

And HOLY MOLY!

If you are curious to see what I’m taking about, you can
check it out here.
I am so moved by the response.

What more can you really want from life than to love and be loved? To put some good out into the world? To have a life well lived?
(I just want many more years of all of this!)

The incredible response to this call for help accentuated the strength and the goodness of all the communities (both physical and virtual) that I am so fortunate to be a part of.

And all the notes and messages! Oh my ❤️!

My most sincere thank you.


Here is my view for today. Not too shabby. Those are the Rockies in the background!

My next scans are April 8. So, in the mean time I have decided to assume that the drug is working perfectly. May as well.



Sunday, November 04, 2018

If Brain Surgery Wasn’t Enough

The good news is that my brain surgery recovery is coming along really well. I’ve even been approved to start driving again, so Jason is taking me out for some driving practice this weekend.

However, life with metastatic lung cancer continues to keep me on my toes. I’ve been in seemingly endless doctor appointments, and the plan now is to do targeted radiation to the area surrounding what was removed from my cerebellum. I am also moving to a new targeted medicine, Lorlatinib. Hence, the endless doctor appointments.

I had my penultimate appointment for the Entrectinib trial, and I am currently going through the washout period in preparation for the Expanded Access Protocol trial for Lorlatinib. As you may recall from my Crizotinib washout, the withdrawal from these powerful meds is remarkably painful. Every muscle in my body is aching, even muscles I didn’t know I had.

On Monday I have the radiation planning appointment. There will be 5 radiation sessions, every other day, beginning the following week. The main side effect is fatigue (but I’m not even over the fatigue from the surgery yet!).

I am due to begin the EAP of Lorlatinib on Tuesday or Wednesday, with all the side effects that come along with that. One of which is fatigue. Oh my!

Don’t get me wrong - I am immensely grateful to have treatment options.

I am grateful there is another targeted med for me to switch to. (And another in trials after this one.)

I am grateful that I am well enough to withstand all this treatment.

I am immensely grateful for more time with my family.

But I have to admit that this has been a lot to deal with. I know that every day I am in treatment is another day I get to live, and for that I am grateful. But some days this is almost overwhelming.

I am very grateful for the support of my community - support that I am going to have to lean on again over the next few weeks.

Thank you so much to all the folks who brought meals to my family during my recovery. It is such a comfort. I can’t help but share this particularly adorable themed meal we received. Great work, Jennie, and it tasted great, too!


In other news, November is Lung Cancer Awareness Month. The ROS1ders are raising money for more research into treatments for our rare cancer. I started this fundraiser back in 2016, for my 40th birthday - and we raised over $6,000! I am reviving it, and hoping we can hit $8,000. Here is the link to donate: https://www.supportalcf.org/ros1/ToriTomalia

Also - make sure you get out and VOTE on Tuesday. As a naturalized citizen, I take voting very seriously. So seriously, in fact, that I voted absentee and mailed in my ballot at 4 am, just before we hit the road for my surgery. I didn’t know what kind of shape I would be in on November 6, and there was no way I was going to miss voting!

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Lung Cancer Stigma

A few days ago there was a great article about the stigma surrounding lung cancer and the impact it has on patients. Check it out!

The lung cancer blame game


Also included in the article was a slide show with several people in the lung cancer club, including yours truly.

Slideshow: Faces of lung cancer


So enough with the blame already, let's work together and find a cure!

Thursday, May 07, 2015

Lung Cancer HOPE Summit

Imagine a room filled with 150 people who have lung cancer, many of whom are stage 4. Do you envision wheelchairs and oxygen tanks? Frailty and sadness? Then, my friend, you clearly did not attend the 5th Annual LUNGevity HOPE Summit in Washington DC this past weekend.

Every year, the LUNGevity Foundation hosts a weekend-long conference for lung cancer survivors and caregivers (you are a "survivor" the day you are diagnosed with cancer). In its first year, 17 survivors attended. This year, that number was 150. The weekend began with a welcome reception Friday night, where I finally got to meet the people who have become my online support community over the past two years. Saturday and Sunday consisted of sessions on topics of interest to people in the lung cancer community — nutrition, surgery, clinical trials, advocacy, and more. Saturday night's dinner was at a lovely outdoor restaurant called the Old Angler's Inn, which provided delicious food and drink as well as live music. We certainly felt pampered! I am very grateful to have received one of the travel grants that LUNGevity provides to help offset the travel and lodging fees. Without this, many of those in attendance would not have been able to come.

Here are my top three highlights of the weekend:


Chris Draft

Chris Draft is a former NFL player who lost his young wife Keasha to lung cancer in 2011. Chris and Keasha founded Team Draft, an organization dedicated to changing the face of lung cancer. Not only is Chris a dynamic and inspiring speaker, but he clearly knows his stuff when it comes to the latest developments in lung cancer research. Thank you, Chris, for all you and your foundation are doing to help those of us living with lung cancer.


John Poirier, PhD

"JT" is an assistant professor at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center and is one of the researchers on the front lines of making change for the lung cancer community. His passion and dedication to this work comes through clearly in how he speaks about it. In addition to discussing the specific developments that are happening in targeted therapies and immunotherapy, he noted how the rate of change in research has ramped up significantly, with new discoveries coming out at a pace never before seen in lung cancer research. This information explosion provides enormous hope for us.


The People

Without question, the best part of the weekend for me was meeting all of the survivors and their caregivers. Talking with these people, I felt like I was seeing old friends that I had known all my life. In the terrifying early days following my diagnosis, reading the blogs of other people living with lung cancer provided a lifeline that helped me find my way through the fear. To finally meet this group of people in person was both wonderful and surreal. It was luxurious to be able to sit and chat over a meal, and learn even more about these people who had inspired me so much. Click here for a list of their active lung cancer blogs.


Thank you to all the people at LUNGevity who made this weekend happen. I now feel even more connected to the lung cancer community than before. If you are interested in attending a HOPE summit, click here to find out more.

To continue the conversation about hope in lung cancer, join the Lung Cancer Social Media (LCSM) tweetchat at 8 p.m. EST on Thursday, May 7. For more information about the "Spreading Hope for Lung Cancer" tweetchat, visit this link. I hope to see you there!



Originally posted at: www.curetoday.com/community/tori-tomalia/2015/05/lung-cancer-hope-summit




Friday, April 10, 2015

Shall We Play A Game?

(I was a kid in the 80s and thought that was one of the coolest movies I had ever seen.)




As my regular readers know, Jason and I have been working toward opening our dream business, Pointless Brewery & Theatre. We are in the middle of a super exciting and nerve-wracking fundraising campaign through Kickstarter. For those of you who aren't familiar with Kickstarter, it is a website that gives artists a platform to get the word out to a large audience about their project, and people can make donations (pledges) to help make this project come to life.

The awesome/terrifying thing about Kickstarter is that if you DON'T make your goal, you lose all the pledges.

Let me say that again...

You lose ALL THE MONEY.

So far we have raised over $37,000 and have more than 300 people from around the world supporting our project. All that love feels pretty amazing.

Here's the harsh part: we need to hit our $50,000 goal by April 20 or we will lose over $37,000

Yikes. Please don't let that happen. If you haven't watched our video and learned about our project yet, take a moment now to do so. It's worth it, I'll wait. Just click here: http://kck.st/1EEAQ08


Now comes the fun part, and why I quoted WarGames above.

Will you play a game with me? It's called the Pointless Challenge, and here is how it works:

  1. Post a picture of something that makes life less pointless. 
  2. Pledge to the Pointless Kickstarter campaign http://kck.st/1EEAQ08 
  3. Tag 3 friends to do the same.

The picture can be anything that makes you smile, that makes you happy, that gives you that giddy-in-the-tummy feeling, that makes your soul sing. It can be complex, it can be simple.

So, will you join me? Share on your Facebook wall, post to Twitter. Invite your friends to take a moment out of life to remember what's important.
 


Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Living On Borrowed Time....

There is a constant clock ticking in my mind.

Tick...tick...tick....

"Living on borrowed time...."

I've passed my expiration date.

Tick...tick...tick....

The thing that scares me most, that threatens to tear me away from my family lives inside my body.

Tick...tick...tick....

One day my luck's gonna run out.

Tick...tick...tick....

Ya know what sucks? Having your future torn away from you when you were just digging into your career. When things were looking so bright. Awards rolling in, people taking notice.

When you have a house full of small children counting on you.


(They're still counting on me.)

So what do you do?

You dust yourself off, take stock of what you still CAN do, where you still CAN play an important role, what dreams you STILL dare to dream.

My cancer is well controlled right now.

Right now I have time.

Tick...tick...tick...

Right now I have time to plan for my family's future. To get things in place to take care of them when I'm gone.

(Did you know cancer is expensive?)

Life takes unexpected turns. You adjust. You make the best of it. You still dare to dream big.

This is the only life you get. Even if it is cut drastically short.

So you shift gears. And dream.

And ask for help.

You.

Yes, you sitting at your computer, looking at your phone. I'm talking to you.

You know all those times you have read my blog and asked yourself what you could do to help?

Now's your chance.

I. Need. Your. Help.

I need you to dig down and pledge to support this dream, to support my family, to give cancer the big middle finger.

Right now.

Take out your credit card and pledge.

Every one of you who has read my writings and been touched by me baring my soul as I faced the unimaginable (your word, not mine).

You can make a difference. You can help build a future for this family.

You can help create something that I will get to be a part of for the next months and (dare I hope) few years. Something to live beyond. A legacy.

Tick...tick...tick....

But we need you.

I need you.

Give.

Challenge your friends to give. Tell them why it matters.

Because sometimes life is super crappy and unfair and horrible. But you know what makes it bearable? The people. The people who pick you up when all is lost. The people who allow you to hope for better days. The people who give you the strength to dream.

The people like you.

Now's your chance.

Tick...tick...tick....

Click here. Watch. Give.



Sunday, March 29, 2015

Finding Your Lung Cancer Community

In the months following my diagnosis with metastatic lung cancer, I felt so desperately lost and alone. I didn't know a single person with this type of cancer, let alone another young mom. As the fog of shock and denial gradually lifted, I ventured into the online waters of cancer groups in an attempt to find others in this same boat. First, I came across a number of blogs written by other young people with lung cancer, and I hung on every written word. Many of those same people have become dear friends to me now, and heartbreakingly some have been taken by this disease.

If you are newly diagnosed or looking to connect with other lung cancer folks, here are a few groups and organizations that have been very helpful to me in my journey, offering emotional support, companionship, up-to-date research information, and even suggestions for treatments to discuss with my doctor.


LUNGevity

LUNGevity is the largest lung cancer non-profit, and has funded over 100 research studies. They also provide patient support through online patient & caregiver forums, an active Facebook group, and the LifeLine program that matches people with similar diagnosis to become phone friends who can call on each other and offer guidence. For face-to-face support, they host Hope Summits throughout the country, where lung cancer survivors can meet in person, hear from experts in the field, and offer peer to peer support.

Why I'm Excited About LUNGevity: I am headed to my very first Hope Summit in May! I will finally get to meet so many of my lung cancer community face to face. There is still time to sign up if you want to come, too.


Bonnie J. Addario Lung Cancer Foundation

Founded by lung cancer survivor Bonnie J. Addario, this non-profit funds an enormous amount of lung cancer research, including the innovative Genomics of Young Lung Cancer study. This first-of-its-kind trial is focused on patients diagnosed with lung cancer under the age of 40, to investigate if there are certain mutations or other similarities within this population. The Lung Cancer Foundation also hosts the Lung Cancer Living Room, a once a month support group and information session that they stream live so that patients around the globe can participate.

Why I Love the Bonnie J. Addario Lung Cancer Foundation: This organization put me in touch with some of the top ROS1 (my driving mutation) researchers for a second opinion that provided insight, information, and hope about my disease.


CancerGRACE (Global Resource for Advancing Cancer Education)

CancerGRACE is a website and online forum where patients can go to discuss treatments, side effects, and new research with other patients and caregivers. What makes CancerGRACE different from other online chat groups is that it is moderated by oncologists. The organization also hosts in-person forums, the most recent being their Immunotherapy Patient Forum in October 2014. This conference featured experts in immunotherapy presenting research and answering patient questions. Videos of the lectures are available online. I attended the Acquired Resistance to EGFR/ALK/ROS1 Inhibitor Forum in September, and I was thrilled to see the top experts in this field discussing their research and answering questions from a room full of patients being kept alive by their discoveries. Remarkable stuff.

What Make CancerGRACE special: It is run by leaders in the field, so they are able to provide accurate, timely information to patients.


LCSM (Lung Cancer Social Media)

For the twitter-savvy folks, LCSM is just the thing for you. This is primarily a twitter-based group that communicates with the hashtag #LCSM, sharing research news, personal stories, and support. Every other Thursday they host a tweetchat focused on a specific lung cancer related topic, and spend one hour in a fast and fun discussion. LCSM also manages a website that includes lung cancer facts, transcripts of past tweetchats, and a list of lung cancer blogs, something that was vital in getting me through the early months following diagnosis. I love the immediacy of blogs, the way stories are told in the moment that they happen. Blogs tend to be more raw and honest that other writing, and I appreciate that immensely.

Why You Should Check Out LCSM: Strange as it may sound, I joined Twitter solely so that I could participate in the LCSM tweetchats. They are fun and informative, and there is a great sense of community around LCSM.


Do you know of other good cancer resources? Post them below!



Originally posted at: www.curetoday.com/community/tori-tomalia/2015/03/finding-your-lung-cancer-community

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Birthdays Take On New Meaning

I did it! I turned 39!!

That may not sound like much of an accomplishment, but the horrible statistics that come with a metastatic lung cancer diagnosis had us all believing that even making it to 38 would be a stretch.

So how does one celebrate such a milestone? For me, with a lot of reflection. I've been given the gift of time, and while my SuperDrug is doing a bang-up job controlling my cancer right now, I know my future is uncertain. Over the past few months, our lung cancer community has endured some incredibly heavy losses. Sadly, losing friends is nothing new to me anymore, but this recent string of deaths hit me particularly hard because several of them were people that I was sure would be the one to beat the odds. Young, previously in great health, with so much to offer the world, and yet cancer stole them away so quickly.

Sobering thoughts.

I have a lung cancer friend who always tells me that he looks forward to seeing me dance at my children's weddings. And every time he says it, my eyes well up with tears because I dare to hope that it might be possible.

Some days I catch myself playing a dangerous game, where my mind wanders to "what if" scenarios. What if I had known, ten years ago, that this was in my cards for the future? Would I have still gotten married and had kids, knowing that I was going to be dropping them into a horrible situation? Or would I have done the noble thing and hidden myself away, to spare others from heartache? A parent's job is to protect their children from harm; would I have been strong enough to destroy all the joy they have given me to save them from pain?


The Fault In Our Stars


 “I'm a grenade and at some point I'm going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties, okay?”

John Green, The Fault in Our Stars


But, of course, I can't go back and change the past. All I can do is make the present memorable for them, and plant seeds for the future. One such seed is a wonderful/crazy dream that my husband and I have nurtured for close to a decade, the goal of opening a theatre together. With my lifespan greatly truncated, we decided that if there is ever a time to make it happen, the time was now. (You can watch a video and learn more about it here: http://kck.st/1EEAQ08)

So yes, I still dream big. I dream that I might see my 40th birthday, I dream that I might plant more gardens, I dream that I might see more first snowfalls, I dream that I might guide my children through their adolescence. And some days I even dare to dream about dancing at their weddings.

But today … today I got to turn 39 years old, and that is a reason to celebrate. Happy birthday to me!



Originally posted at: http://www.curetoday.com/community/tori-tomalia/2015/03/birthdays-take-on-new-meaning

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Our Pointless Dream

Here it is, folks! As I wrote in "A Pointless Story", Jason and I have been hard at work getting things in place to open our dream business, Pointless Brewery & Theatre. (Which, as far as I know, is the ONLY such combo in existence. If you know of others, please let me know, I would love to meet the owners!)

And now is your chance to come on board and help get this up on its feet. Watch the video, check out the cool perks, and join us!

AND - all donations of $75 or more get a one-year Pointless Peeps membership, which gives you 10% off of all show tickets, drinks, snacks, and merchandise. Plus a cool t-shirt. Pretty sweet, huh?

Click on the logo below to watch:

Monday, March 02, 2015

Empowered Patients Change National Cancer Guidelines

I have metastatic lung cancer. Conventional wisdom says that once cancer has spread beyond the original site, cure is impossible and the purpose of treatment is to reduce symptoms and extend the patient's life. Surgery is off the table.

Except.

Except what if the cancer has only just started to spread? What if it has only set up a few metastases (called oligometastatic disease)? Could you push the envelope and try the impossible, to cure stage 4 lung cancer?

A group of patients believed that this idea was worth fighting for.

It started with lung cancer patient Chris Newman's participation in an online patient forum, Inspire.com, where she learned about quite a few stage 4 patients with a small number of metastases who had undergone surgery or SBRT (Stereotactic Body Radiation Therapy, a kind of radiation that pinpoints small tumors). These patients had enjoyed No Evidence of Disease for years. They were lucky to have been treated at top medical institutions by doctors who were willing to think beyond the dire prognosis that comes with stage 4 lung cancer. On the flip side, there were many patients on the forum who said their doctors would only treat stage 4 with chemo, regardless of the number of metastases.

Chris realized that if the guidelines could be changed to allow surgery or SBRT for more situations, more metastatic patients might be offered these treatment options. She made the bold decision to approach the National Comprehensive Cancer Network (NCCN) and propose that they change their guidelines. At worst, she thought, the panel will have a good laugh. But the idea snowballed, and a group of lung cancer patients who knew each other through Inspire formed the Independent Lung Cancer Patient Advocates (ILCPA), and they went to work. They pooled their knowledge, connected with lung cancer non-profits, and attended the American Society of Clinical Oncology conference to solicit physician support and bring even more muscle to the fight.

Fueled by passion, cutting-edge research, and Twizzlers, the team spent endless hours poring over research, compiling journal articles and a developing a proposal to change the lives of people who had been told that aggressive treatment and cure were not an option; people who had a prognosis of a year, maybe two to live.

Fate stepped in. Chris found herself sitting next to an NCCN panel member, Dr. Frederick Grannis, at a lung cancer advocacy conference. He was kind enough to review the proposal and make sure that every member of the panel got a copy of her Addendum Arguments and that the proposal received serious consideration at the panel's meeting.

I've read the complete proposal, and it is pretty brilliant.


Here are some highlights:

"The life expectancy for Stage IV NSCLC patients is only around 8 to 12 months and 5-year survival rate between 1% and 5%. While a significant portion of clinicians react to the dismal prognosis of this group of patients with therapeutic nihilism or restrict their recommendations to those found only in existing guidelines, the issue of the most appropriate treatment approach is a very personal and subjective one for the patients, who find themselves face to face with their own mortality. Treatment plans for Stage IV NSCLC patients involve personal life/death/quality of life decisions. The patient should have the ultimate right to decide optimal balance of risk, benefit and quality of life, etc., when reviewing possible treatment options with their clinician. They are deprived of this right when they are not presented with ‘all’ reasonably appropriate treatment options."

…and…

"Stage IV NSCLC patients with oligometastatic disease often are not offered, or even made aware of, the option of aggressive local treatment which may provide long term survival, or even curative benefits, by their clinicians, as current guidelines do not explicitly address this issue, despite persuasive and compelling advances".

… and then, they bring it all together…

"Therefore, given the grim prognosis for this subset of patients, possibly life extending and/or curative treatment options should be addressed in the treatment guidelines algorithms in ‘all’ instances where there is NCCN consensus that the intervention is appropriate".


So guess what…

They did it!


As of January 1, 2015, the National Comprehensive Cancer Network guidelines now include information that could dramatically change the lives of stage 4 lung cancer patients with oligometastatic disease.

And all because a group of patients raised their voices together and demanded to be heard.

On behalf of lung cancer patients everywhere, I offer my enormous gratitude to the patients, caregivers, lung cancer advocacy groups, and clinicians who supported this effort:

Chris Newman, Janet Freeman-Daily, George Haughton, Michele Taylor, Robert Young (RIP), Annika Holm, Shane Piers, Addario Lung Cancer Medical Institute, Bonnie J. Addario Lung Cancer Foundation, LUNGevity, Lung Cancer Circle of Hope, LUNGCAN (a collaborative group of 18 lung cancer advocacy organizations), David P. Carbone, MD, PhD, Joe Y. Chang, MD, PhD, Abraham Chachoua,, MD, Maria Teresa Congedo, MD, Raja M. Flores, MD, Gregory N. Gan, MD, PhD, Corey J. Langer, MD, FACP, Michael T. Milano, MD, PhD, Paul Okunieff , MD, Kenneth Rosenzweig, MD, Joseph K. Salama, MD, Alice Tsang Shaw, MD, PhD, Roman Perez-Soler, MD, Tokujiro Yano, MD


For more on this story, see "How A Group Of Lung Cancer Survivors Got Doctors To Listen" at NPR.org.

Visit the NCCN website to read the complete guidelines.



Originally posted at: www.curetoday.com/community/tori-tomalia/2015/03/empowered-patients-change-national-cancer-guidelines

Thursday, February 12, 2015

A Pointless Story

I have been so busy writing stuff for CURE that I haven't been posting new content for this lovely bloggety-blog. And there is a huge piece of the puzzle that I have been leaving out.

I briefly mentioned this in a previous post, but Jason and I are knee-deep in launching our dream business. I guess I keep forgetting to write about it because we are so busy working on it that I don't have a lot of brain space left to reflect!

So, on with the story....

Ever since Jason and I have known each other (seriously, we talked about this on one of our first dates), we have planned to one day open a theatre together. We knew we wanted to create a space where people could come together and have fun, laugh, be creative, and just enjoy. However, since we have both worked in theatre for so long, we are well aware of how difficult it is to have a financially viable theatre. We looked at models of theatres that were successful, and they all had other sources of funding in addition to ticket sales, such as a strong education branch, a corporate program, and so on.

Then, about 7 years ago, Jason got a homebrewing kit for Christmas. And the man went crazy. He was totally hooked, and fell in love with every aspect of it. (And his beers are really good!) That's when we realized that combining improv theatre with craft beer was the perfect blend. Improv theatre is all about working within an existing structure to create something new; craft beer starts with existing styles and innovates with new ingredients and methods. They go together like rainbows and unicorns!

So, we had an idea we loved, but we also had three small kids and I was busy pursuing an MFA with the goal of becoming a professor. We put the business on the back burner and planned to return to it once my career was up and running.

And then, as you know, cancer.

My diagnosis flipped our whole world upside down, and "long-term goals" seemed pointless. Jason and I talked a lot about what we wanted to do with this time, and what we wanted for our family. We realized that if there was ever a time to pursue our dream of building something together, the time was NOW.

But how to make this happen? And what would we call it? Well, there is a story behind that too....

It was back during chemo and I was having a pretty horrible day. I felt rotten, run down, beaten up, and just exhausted. I looked at Jason with tears in my eyes and said, 

"What am I fighting so hard for? What if I go through all this, and it still just ends up awful? What's the point? Everything just feels so pointless."

And, being the wonderful, intuitive person that he is, he responded perfectly.

"Okay, maybe it all is pointless. Maybe everything we do is pointless.... So let's do this. Let's open a pointless brewery and theatre, and make our pointless dreams come true."

He got me to laugh through my tears. And then we looked at each other and knew that we had to do it. And we had the name. Pointless Brewery & Theatre.




It's the perfect name. How often do we waste our days doing what we are supposed to do, looking the way we are supposed to look, saying what we are supposed to say. You get up, rush to work, drink coffee to stay awake, work hard to get ahead, stress over deadlines, all for what? What is the point of that?

If you knew your time were limited, wouldn’t you spend it doing things you love, and spending time with the important people in your life? When it comes down to it, all that matters is the people you get to meet, spending time with the ones you love, and bringing joy to the world. Everything else is pointless. 

~~~

So, here we are now, building our dream! With the help of a few wonderful investors, we have leased a building, hired an architect, drawn up legal papers, and started making this dream come true. We will be launching a Kickstarter campaign in a few weeks to help raise the rest of the funding, and we aim to open by summer. I keep bouncing back and forth between being incredibly excited and absolutely terrified, which, as my dear friend Meriah said, is exactly how you should feel with a great creative endeavor. 

There will be more updates along the way as things roll out. Thanks for all your support throughout the ups and downs of my treatments. I certainly hope to be around helping Jason run this business for a long, long time. And if not, then I want it to live on and be something that he and our kids have to hold on to, and a place where people can come together with the people they love and find the joy in life.
"Grab a beer, have a laugh. It's all pointless ... that's the point."
~~~~~

Edited 3/23/15: Here's the link to the Kickstarter. Click on the logo, watch the video, and give what you can!

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Cancer: the World's Worst Houseguest

You are sitting down to a nice dinner when you hear a knock on the door. That's strange, I wasn't expecting anyone. You open the door a crack to see who it is. He shoves the door all the way open and barges in.

It's Cancer, the World's Worst Houseguest.

He walks right past you and leaves muddy footprints all over your carpet. You are in shock. You didn't know there was any chance of him coming over. It was the last thing on your mind, but here he is, lounging on your couch like he owns the place. Who is this? What is he doing here?

Once the shock wears off, you try to talk to him. How long will he be staying? Why did he pick you? He just shrugs, rolls over and goes to sleep, snoring loudly.

You start to question yourself. If only you hadn't left the porch light on, maybe he would have gone right past your house. The neighbors whisper that you never should have bought that welcome mat. And the charming walkway lined with flowers just encouraged him.

The visit drags on and on. The days turn into weeks, and before you know it he has been there for months destroying your house and turning your life upside-down. You are exhausted because he wakes you up at all hours of the night. He walks around in slippers and thick socks, saying that your floors hurt his tender feet. He has puked on the carpet and clogged up the shower drain with his constantly shedding hair. He alternately eats everything in sight and complains that your food tastes weird. You notice that a few friends have stopped coming over, and you know that it is because they can't stand being around this guy. You can hardly blame them; you don't want him here either.

However, you also discover that you have an amazing community that offers to bring meals, help out around the house, and even drive your nasty houseguest all over town to his various appointments.

As time goes on, you meet other people who have experienced this terrible houseguest. Yeah, the same thing happened to me. He showed up totally unannounced and made me adjust my whole life to accommodate him. You discover that you now have membership in a club that no one wants to join, and soon you are swapping tips with others. When he kept complaining that my food tasted funny, I got rid of the metal cutlery and started serving it with plastic. He said it tasted much better! You find that together you can even laugh at his bizarre quirks.

After a while you start to get used to him hanging around, but you never forget that he is there. When you are feeling relaxed and happy, you hear him run to the bathroom. Your quiet book and cup of tea are interrupted by his hacking cough from the next room. He is always present.

Finally, after a seemingly endless string months, you kick him out of the house. You celebrate your freedom, but even then you find yourself checking the closets, peeking into dark shadows to see if he might be hiding somewhere. You think you hear him following you late at night. And every few months you get a message from him. He's considering stopping by again for a visit, but he's not sure. You peek out the window and think you catch a glimpse of him turning the corner.

One thing is certain: your life is never the same again after you receive a visit from the World's Worst Houseguest.


Originally posted at: http://www.curetoday.com/community/tori-tomalia/2015/01/cancer-the-worlds-worst-houseguest

Monday, December 22, 2014

Recipe for Living with Metastatic Cancer

Some of these ingredients may seem hard to find, especially if you are newly diagnosed. But with a little searching (and soul searching), you can create something wonderful to sustain yourself through the hard times.

  • First, you will need three heaping cups of support.
This support can come in a variety flavors, and many blend well together.

The first cup includes your close circle: spouse, parents, family, friends, relatives, neighbors, coworkers, religious groups, community groups. These people are all around you, and are the first to jump in. Since too much support can spoil the recipe, it helps to use a website like Lotsa Helping Hands, or an organized friend to coordinate your support.

The second cup is your cancer people. It begins with the medical staff, such as your doctors, nurses and social workers. I have found it enormously helpful to include the support of other people with cancer, because they know what I am going through both emotionally and physically and can serve as emotional and practical guides navigating these waters. Explore online groups and organizations as well as in-person support such as The Cancer Support Community, a national organization that provides online support as well as local chapters. Remember that there is also support for your caregiver and children, if you have them, in the form of caregiver support groups and child life specialists for young ones.

The third cup is money. Cancer is expensive, and even if you have good insurance, the co-pays plus the lost work can add up quickly. Consider allowing friends to do a local fundraiser or an online campaign. Many people with advanced cancer also qualify for Social Security Disability, so speak to your hospital social worker about this.

Remember, support is vital to having this recipe work out, so don't skimp on this ingredient because you are scared or ashamed to ask for help.

  • Next, throw in two large handfuls of courage.
Sometimes the courage comes in big chunks, enough to sustain you for weeks. Other times, it is granules that are just enough to keep you going one moment at a time.

It is the courage to ask questions of your doctor, the courage to advocate for yourself if you feel that you are not getting the care and response you need. It is the courage to admit that you need help. It is the courage to go for a second opinion. It is the courage to discuss end-of-life issues and wishes. It is the courage to tell those closest to you about what you are facing, your worries, your dreams and your nightmares. It takes courage to admit that you don't feel positive all the time. Admit the fear, speak of the terror, stop being strong. Then, when you are ready, find the courage to keep moving forward.

  • Melt and stir in a stick of knowledge, so that it spreads evenly throughout the mixture.
People vary on the amount of knowledge they like in here, but this ingredient enriches the whole experience.

When diagnosed with cancer, we are thrown into an entirely new landscape, and knowledge can give back some of the feeling of control that cancer tears away. Knowledge helps you know what expect, how to plan for what could go wrong, what the Plan B will be if/when this treatment stops working. With knowledge you can learn about clinical trials that may prove promising (even potentially lifesaving) for your particular case. You can find this knowledge from online cancer communities of others with your disease, from staying abreast of the latest research, from pressing your doctors for more information, and from talking to others professionals in the field.

  • Throw in a dash of denial.
Without just a touch of this, the flavors can sour.

Sometimes the intensity of a stage 4 diagnosis can be simply overwhelming. I have found that I can't spend all my time focused on my dire prognosis. Sometimes, I just need to forget about it, try to forget that cancer exists, forget this thing living inside of me. So go ahead, splash in some denial – and if you're having one of those days, pour in the whole bottle. I won't tell.


  • Finally, cover the whole thing with a generous dusting of hope.
This final ingredient pulls the flavors together and makes it all palatable.

Never underestimate the power of hope. In the darkest times, it can provide a single ray of light that keeps you moving forward. It could be the hope that you make it into a clinical trial, or that this next treatment buys you some more time, or that you will make it to the next birthday, or that you might just be the outlier that blows the statistics out of the water.

~~~
Of course, there is no one recipe that works for everyone. These are the things that have helped me navigate the emotional minefield of this disease. What about you? What ingredients do you put in your mix?



Originally posted at: http://www.curetoday.com/community/tori-tomalia/2014/12/recipe-for-living-with-metastatic-cancer

Tuesday, December 02, 2014

Best of Lung Cancer Awareness Month 2014

"...be inspired and punch a hole in the wall of numbness and dumbness. And now is the time to do it. It's going to take a very strong person to punch that hole. But that person or persons will lead the way to the next place. One just sits and waits for the rumpus to begin."  - Maurice Sendak
The Lung Cancer Awareness advocates have been busy! While we didn't have sports teams and cheerleaders wearing pearls or white ribbons for us, I think we had better visibility than last year. We are making progress in reaching more people, and equally as important, we are growing stronger as a community. As my friend and fellow lung cancer blogger said so well, "We may be low on funding, but we’re big on community." (If you haven't read it before, click on that link for a wonderful post about the life-altering power of community.)

There were thousands of inspiring and educational videos, blogs, stories, tweets, and articles during the month of November. Since it would take a long time (like, a month) to repeat them all here, I will instead highlight a few of my favorites. So grab some popcorn and settle in to enjoy this Best Of #LCAM14.


Best Infographics

 

  • Who doesn't love an acronym?


  • I hate to admit it, but I think I was one of them. Are you?


  • DustyJoy.org created an entire alphabet of facts about lung cancer.



  • LUNGevity challenged lung cancer patients, caregivers, and advocates to take pictures of themselves wearing a LUNGevity band and holding facts about lung cancer. The goal? To educate and change the face of lung cancer. 


  • Damien (aka @CoolioUserName), a fellow lung cancer traveler, created a whole slew of awesome graphics. Here are a few of my favorites.


Best Blog Posts


Bonus - because of the great response to her new slogan, Lisa created some merchandise, and the proceeds from the sales will go to the Bonnie J. Addario Lung Cancer Foundation.

Best Videos


  • Lace up your gloves, folks, the Bonnie J. Addario Lung Cancer Foundation is asking you to join the fight. This video takes us back to the first days of the war on cancer, and looks at where we are today. "Addario Lung Cancer Foundation - Join the Fight!"

  • I really hope by now you know more than 99% of the women in this survey. Watch the LungForce video "Women's Lung Health Barometer" to make sure.

  • For the past year, Molly Golbon has allowed a camera crew to follow her experiences as a young mom with stage IV lung cancer. I cannot fathom the courage it took for her to let them film her getting scan results. She must be made of steel. I think I speak for the whole lung cancer community when I say a heartfelt thank you to her and her family for opening up their lives to help educate the nation about this disease. Please take the time to watch this amazing documentary. "Molly's Journey: Living with Lung Cancer."

Well, there you have it. What a remarkable month. I am so proud of the lung cancer community. Let's do it even bigger and better next year!

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

If Not Me, Then Who?

As I hope you know by now, it is Lung Cancer Awareness month, and the members of the LC community have been working our lungs out (see what I did there?) to educate and raise awareness about this horrible disease.

A heartfelt thank you to my friends and family who have put up with me going on (and on and on...) about lung cancer awareness. But it means a lot to me. Obviously.

During this week, this week of thankfulness, 3,000 people in my community will die from this ignored, underfunded, misunderstood, and stigmatized disease. 

3,000 people.

In this week of Thanksgiving I am constantly reminded of just how freakin' lucky I am to still be around today. I can breathe. I can speak. I can write. Too many people in my community are no longer able to do so.

I speak out for myself and on behalf of those who no longer can. I keep talking about it, because so far I am not one of the 3,000.

I keep advocating because I still can. If not me, then who?


As part of the effort to educate and raise awareness, I have been posting images, stories, and facts each day on my Facebook page. If you haven't yet, please join us on the Lil Lytnin' Facebook page.

I also had the opportunity to share my story on a few other platforms. Click through each link to read the articles.


For the first time in my lung cancer advocacy career, I wrote for a non-cancer-related site, Parents Magazine.

| The Parents Perspective

 



I guest blogged at Livestrong.


A Survivor Story: Tori Tomalia


Lung Cancer Awareness Month (#LCAM) got some nice coverage on NBC news and I got to share my story again, this time alongside two awesome women, Emily Bennett Taylor and Arielle Densen.

Lung Cancer for Nonsmokers Still Stained by Stigma - NBC News

By the way, I swear I have submitted other photos to these media outlets, but they always choose this one. I can't blame them, Edda did an amazing job with it!

I also made an online quiz, a fun, interactive way to learn something about lung cancer. 

What do you know about cancer?



So there's a recap of what I have been working on over the past month (I mean, in addition to juggling side effects, raising kids, living life, helping start a business, etc.). Don't think I have forgotten about the outstanding people and groups that have been doing great things for LCAM14. I will have a "Best Of" list in a subsequent post. Stay tuned!

Saturday, October 04, 2014

Sharing Our Story

I almost titled this post "Sharing My Story," but realized that this is much bigger than me. Today I had the honor of speaking at the Peter A. Kaylor Lung Cancer Walk in Allegan, Michigan. I know how lucky I am to be able to speak out about this disease, when so many others who have gone before me are no longer able to do so.

This was what I had to say about my one year, four months, and five days (so far) of living with lung cancer.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

It started with a cough that wouldn’t go away. But everybody I knew had a cold, so it didn’t seem like a big deal. I started to feel a little better, but before long I had another chest cold. And I was exhausted, but I was in grad school full time, working, and raising a 4 year old and infant twins. Who wouldn’t be exhausted?!? But my breathing kept getting worse, so the doctor thought it was a return of my childhood asthma. We tried one medication, then another, then another. But I kept getting worse. Finally, in May of 2013 they sent me for a chest CT scan to see if there was something else going on. There was. The scan revealed a large mass in my left lung, that had wrapped all around and had caused my lung to partially collapse. A biopsy confirmed that it was lung cancer, and further testing showed that the cancer had spread to the other lung, my spine, my hip, my ribs, my shoulder blade, and my liver. I was unequivocally stage IV, inoperable, at age 37.

At that time, I thought it was impossible for a nonsmoker to get lung cancer. Clearly, I was very wrong.

So I began 4 months of chemotherapy. July, August, September, October, I struggled with side effects and tried to spend as much time with my family as humanly possible, to “make memories” as my social worker advised. I got to see my little girls learn to ride tricycles, and I got to see my son start kindergarten. The amazing thing was that as the summer progressed, my breathing started getting better. I was able to climb upstairs and kiss my son goodnight again. I was able to walk around carrying my little girls. And then the scans confirmed it: the chemo was working, and my cancer was shrinking. But as October rolled around, a question loomed: what next? The cancer was shrinking, but not gone, and a person can only tolerate so much chemo before the toxic side effects become too damaging. We discussed what they call “maintenance” chemo, a lower dose of chemo that they can give for as long as the patient can tolerate it, to try and keep the cancer at bay.

Meanwhile, the shock of having stage IV cancer was starting to wear off, and my thirst for knowledge had kicked back in. I started reading about personalized medicine, where they can test the tumor and figure out what went wrong to cause the cancer, called the cancer “driver.” My oncologist had tested me for two common ones, but my obsessive reading and research revealed that there are several other rare ones that can be tested for. I asked my oncologist for further testing and on October 31 – Halloween – I got the wonderful, game changing news that we had discovered what went wrong to cause my cancer, and that there is a drug to treat it. In November, I started on a brand new drug called Xalkori. I have been taking this medicine – two pills a day – for 11 months, and currently I have no evidence of active cancer anywhere in my body.

But I know the battle isn’t over. My wonder drug is amazing, and I am thankful for the good quality of life I have now. I still have side effects, but they are not as bad as chemo. However, I know that my cancer will eventually become resistant to this treatment, that my cancer will figure out a way around my super drug. If/when that time comes, I will pursue other treatments, plans B, C, D, and so on. I have stage IV cancer, I will always be in treatment.

To say that this past year has been life-changing is quite an understatement. I certainly appreciate things more than I used to, and I think I have gotten even bolder and more outspoken than I used to be, if that is possible. And I have connected with a whole lung cancer community full of incredibly strong and wonderful people, who I now consider my “lung cancer family.” Sadly, I have learned that this disease can strike absolutely anybody.

There’s Craig, diagnosed at age 60
Janet, diagnosed at age 55
Mark, age 47
Lisa, age 41
Molly, age 39
Samantha, age 33
Emily, age 28
Burton, age 23
and Corey, age 22

The thing we all have in common is that we were all diagnosed at stage IV. Stage IV. The other thing we all have in common? None of us deserved this.

Here are some sobering facts:
  • Lung cancer is the second leading cause of all deaths in the US.
  • Lung cancer kills almost 2x as many women as breast cancer and 3x as many men as prostate cancer.
  • Lung cancer in never smokers is 6th leading cause of US cancer deaths.
And yet, I chose to remain hopeful. I know that I am one of the lucky ones. Things are changing fast in cancer research. If I would have gotten this a few years earlier, I probably wouldn’t be here today. If I hadn’t pushed to get more testing done on my tumor, I might not be here today. Chalk it up to stubbornness, perseverance, or just dumb luck, I am very thankful to be here talking to you today.

I am alive because of research. There are some really exciting discoveries going on out there and some amazing things coming down the pike. My goal is to stick around long enough to see them.

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Save a Breath

Next Saturday I have the honor of speaking at the Peter A. Kaylor Lung Cancer Walk in Allegan, Michigan. Peter Kaylor was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer in October of 2012, at which point the cancer had already spread to his lymph nodes, heart, and brain. He was given 4 weeks to live. Despite this terrible prognosis, he soldiered through chemotherapy and radiation and lived for over 5 month, celebrating the holidays with his family and sharing many memories that they hold dear.

Following his death, the family decided that they wanted to make sure other families didn’t have to go through this kind of pain, and they held a fundraiser walk in his honor. This upcoming Saturday will mark the second annual walk, and the proceeds will go to fund the West Michigan Cancer Center, which has set up a foundation to provide PET and CT scans for people at risk of lung cancer.

The group has planned a lovely day beginning with speakers (including yours truly), then a balloon release (using organic, environmentally safe balloons), followed by a one mile walk throughout beautiful Allegan. Afterward, you can bid at the silent auction, the proceeds of which also go to fund the Cancer Center.


If you are in the Allegan area, please come out and join us.

When: October 4, 2014 at 11 am
Where: Mahan Park, Allegan, MI

You can register online (click “donate”) for $20 in advance, or you can register at the event for $25.
Check out the facebook page for more information.



Saturday, September 13, 2014

Real Life

Sometimes I find it hard to tell the difference between real life and fiction. This is probably due in no small part to growing up obsessed with books, stories, and plays. I tend to see life through the lens of a story: what is that character's arc? Where is the surprising twist? The "all is lost" moment? I have always been particularly drawn to stories of a plucky young heroine/hero (Buffy, Ender, Katniss, Tris) facing seemingly insurmountable odds in a bizarre reality, who somehow finds a way out in the end.

This past weekend I attended a conference in Boston for people with stage IV lung cancer, whose tumors have specific genetic changes (EGFR, ALK, and ROS1) that can be treated with targeted medicines. It was remarkable to hear from the rock star doctors who are conducting the research that is keeping me alive. What was possibly even more powerful, however, was to sit in a room full of a hundred people who are on this same crappy journey as me. Many of these people I had already "met" and they have become an important support system for me, my lung cancer family. But all of my interactions with them have taken place in a virtual space, social media or patient/caregiver online groups. At times I have wondered if they actually exist or if my mind had created them as a coping mechanism (for the Buffy fans out there, think S06E17 "Normal Again"). I'm not naturally a very huggy person, but I felt the urge to hug each and every person I met there. I'm embarrassed to admit that the words "You're real!" escaped my lips at one point. 

All of us in that room are living in a weird dual reality, looking (and often feeling) quite normal but knowing that we have advanced, incurable cancer - "eventually terminal" as one person said.

It's a strange reality to live in, which is part of why I feel like the line between real life and fiction sometimes seems so blurry. I think part of what makes it all seem so unreal is the juxtaposition of things. I spend my days with my adorable kiddos who are so full of life, then check my phone and read about another person entering hospice. I look and feel relatively normal, but know that my odds of being around 4 years from now are less than 4% (if you believe the statistics, which some say are inaccurate because of how quickly things are changing - THANK YOU RESEARCH).

I am so glad I went to Boston last weekend (where I also got to catch up with my old Rough & Tumble Theatre crew!!!). I geeked out on cancer research, and meet face to face with so many people that have inspired, informed, and encouraged me throughout this journey. Beth, Luna, Robyn, Jon, Leslie, Andy, Kathy, Jeff, Corey, Carole, Robyn, Tony, Nicole, Dan, Bernie, Craig, Kris, Ria, Bonnie, Kyle, Sharon, and everyone else, thank you for being real!

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

6 Easy Ways You Can Help Stop Lung Cancer

I am alive because of research.

This may sound like hyperbole, but when I think back to how very sick I was by the time they finally figured out what was going on, it is not hard to believe. It was only once the chemo started working that I was able to walk around and talk without getting short of breath. When we found my ROS1 mutation, I was able to go on the brand-spankin'-new drug Xalkori. This incredible leap of science is able to specifically target the mutation, and it has gotten me to NED. How freaking amazing is that?!?

Sadly, lung cancer research receives very little funding. In the wake of the impressive IceBucketChallenge, several articles have come out addressing the disparity of funding for diseases. The image below, from "The Diseases We Donate To Aren't Always The Diseases That Kill Us," shows that while breast cancer (pink circle) and prostate cancer (orange circle) are very popular places to donate, the number of deaths caused by these illnesses is relatively small (see the corresponding dots on the right side). Both are nasty diseases and I personally know many who are suffering from or have died from them. What this chart says to me is that we are great at donating to these two causes, and both are now benefiting and have achieved high cure rates.



Noticeably absent from this chart is lung cancer, the #1 cancer killer. Below is another version of the graph, modified to include lung cancer. 


See the tiny white dot at the bottom on the left? Compare that to the white circle on the right. Lung cancer causes more deaths than colon, breast and pancreatic cancers combined. Lung cancer in non-smokers is the #6 cancer killer in the US, and it is on the rise in young women.  

So, when I hear about the cuts in research finding it is not just upsetting, it is terrifying. Without advances in research, I would be dead. There is currently another drug in trials - a new and improved Xalkori - that is in the wings for when Xalkori stops working for me. Support for research is vital for me, it the truest sense of the word.

"But what can I do about this?"

I'm so glad you asked. I have assembled an activism smorgasbord for just that reason.


1. For those who like pampering themselves


    Paint your toe nails purple and email a photo of your purple toes to purpletoes@lungcancerfoundation.org, then tweet and facebook it with #purpletoes. You can get your purple nail polish right from the Lung Cancer Foundation for a $25 donation. Click here for more information.
    The girls and I did this a few months ago

     

    2. For those who like to get political:

       

      The American Lung Association is hosting the Lung Cancer Call-In Day on Thursday, September 4th to ask congress to increase research funding. All you have to do to participate is call your congressperson on Thursday during regular business hours. 
      "But I can't remember who my congressperson is!"
       That's okay, you can look it up easily right here. All you need is your zip code.
      "But I'll never remember to call on Thursday!"
      Click here to request a reminder email to be sent to you Thursday morning. They are making this so easy!
      "But I've never called a politician before. I'm nervous!"
      That's okay, it's going to be my first time calling my congressman, too. Let's all come back here to the comments section of this post after we do it and post what it was like. We can debrief together!

       

      3. For those who like mingling with the stars

         

        Stand Up To Cancer is hosting "the biggest television event of the year" on Friday, September 5th at 8/7 central. And as a flip of the old call-in-to-donate method, in this program the stars will call YOU!

        "Paltrow and Joel Gallen of Tenth Planet Productions will co-executive produce the Sept. 5 broadcast, live from the Dolby Theatre in Los Angeles.  ABC, CBS, FOX and NBC, along with ABC Family, American Forces Network, Bravo, Cooking Channel, Discovery Fit & Health, E!, Encore, Encore Espanol, EPIX, ESPNEWS, FOX Sports 2, FXM, HBO, HBO Latino, ION Television, LMN, Logo TV, MLB Network, National Geographic Channel, Oxygen, Palladia, Pivot, SHOWTIME, Smithsonian Channel, Starz, TNT and VH1 are donating one hour of simultaneous commercial-free primetime for the nationally televised fundraising special on Friday, September 5, to be broadcast live from the Dolby Theatre in Los Angeles. The show will stream live on both Hulu and Yahoo."

        There is already a lot of buzz building on social media about this event, with the hashtag #IStandUpFor.

        Katie Couric favorited a tweet about me!


        4. For those who have a bunch of cash burning a hole in their pocket: 

           

          There are several excellent lung cancer organizations that will generously help you extinguish the flames by accepting that cash!


          5. For those who have just a little bit of cash burning a hole in their ... phone:

             

            Text LUNG to 27722 to make a $10 donation to the Lung Cancer Alliance.
            It's quick and it's easy. Who doesn't love easy advocacy?


            6. For those who like doing silly stuff and putting their mug on social media: 

              Join the #WhipLungCancer campaign. Here is my video:

              "But wait a second, aren't you just jumping on ALS's IceBucket bandwagon?"
              Actually, no. The IceBucketChallenge, in its current incarnation, was started by another lung cancer family  to raise funds and awareness for lung cancer. I don't want to take anything away from ALS; it's a terrible disease and deserves its share of the pie, too. But we are trying to bring some attention back to where it started, with lung cancer, but in a new way. Plus I got to introduce my kids to a whole new food group. Who knew food could be sprayed out of a can?
              ~~~~~

              This weekend I will be in Boston attending the Acquired Resistance Patient Forum, hearing from several of the rockstar docs who are doing the research that is saving my life. I'm really excited to hear what they have to say, plus I will get to meet a bunch of my fellow lung cancer folks in person! I can't wait to get a photo of a room full of people with stage IV lung cancer, who are living well because of targeted meds. Keep that research funding coming!

              Now, don't think that I'm disregarding all the prayers, good vibes, chanting, and more that people have been sending my way. I'm sure all your love and support has played a role in how well I am doing right now. But you know how that old story goes, about the drowned man who went to heaven and yelled at God,
              "I prayed! Why didn't you help me?" 
              God replies,
              "I tried! I sent a log, and then a branch, and then a boat...." 
              Take a look through the activism buffet above and see if there is something in there that appeals to you. If not, share this with a friend. Sadly, many of us know someone touched by lung cancer. Let's help turn this death sentence into a life sentence.