The funny thing is, I've often attributed my impatience to having bone cancer as a teen. I had just started high school, and was wrapped up in trying to figure out that world when BOOM! Cancer. I learned that your whole life can change in an instant. When I finished treatment and had the wonderful gift of living, the notion of how fleeting it all is stuck with me.
Case in point:
Jason and I met in November, got engaged in December, got married in April.
When something is right, don't wait!
I don't mean to say act foolishly, just don't waste time doubting yourself and making excuses.
And if my kids are reading this one day: remember that Dad and I were both 29 and had years of dating experience so we were able to assess the situation well. Be cautious about rushing into a lifelong experience at age 18!
When I was traveling around Australia several years ago, I thought I would try my hand at scuba diving so I signed up for a 3-day / 2-night scuba boat excursion on the Great Barrier Reef. I was recounting this to my sister a few months ago and she commented that I had never scuba dived before, so how did I know I would like it? I didn't really know how to respond. It hadn't occurred to me that I might not like it, and even if I had not enjoyed diving, I'm sure I would have found something else to do on the boat which would have been fun.
When an exciting opportunity presents itself, say yes.
I think this philosophy has been a big part of what drives me. As a result of this, I have led a pretty great life.
But I'm scared
That's okay, I'm scared too.I've been called fearless, but they're wrong.I'm, sometimes, beyond terrified.But sometimes, beyond terrifiedIs where you need to be.
So now I am trying to balance impatience with patience, and gain everything I can from both. I guess this is my gift from cancer. ...kinda wish I could have learned an easier way!
I am looking forward to a lovely holiday season with my family, and hope to have many more. Thank you to everyone sending their love and support. It means so much to me!
My wishes for you....
Enjoy the moment.
And never pass up the opportunity to pee.*